Andrew J. Lederer

people never think i'm doing anything.

i mean as an actor or comedian or writer or whatever.

i don't mean that they think i'm out of work. (although they'd be correct in that.)

i mean they think i'm just being rather than doing. that i'm not acting or intentionally creating a persona or tone but instead am just a character, powerless to be anything other than what is paraded before them.

which, in a way is a goal of mine.

in a way, it's a compliment to me.

(and in a way, it's maybe even partially true.)

but this perception of me as god or circumstance's creation rather than my own has haunted me again and again.